It was said that I should not ask God bcos questioning Him is like doubting Him.

Can you blame me if I ask God ‘why’ to things I don’t understand?

Lately, am finding it really hard to compromise to what my heart says and what my mind speaks. It was said that getting yourself to the level of anxiety confuses life itself, will make you feel weary, will lost you and will hurt you in the end that will cause you to backslide then SIN.

Am I backsliding?

God knows I am not. I speak to Him every single minute of my life. It is as if I can not be able to move and breathe without Him for I certainly can not live without Him.

Talking heart to heart with Jesus is the most real thing I always do in my whole life. I never limit myself how I talk to Him, which ways I will put my tantrums on Him, what feelings I will show Him bcos I know HE WILL UNDERSTAND!

He is my Father and being a father, He wants me to be as real as I am – as honest as I can.

I question Him. I put tantrums on Him. I tell Him what exactly I feel. I tell Him I how I really am.

For now, I have decided to go intimate with Him…. ALONE WITH HIM. No place to go. No people to think of…. but just HIM and ME alone.

Me, the bible and HIM.

posted by Yesha Gee at Sunday, August 2, 2009 2:21 AM -